It is finally FRIDAY
FRIDAY IS UPON US and this weekend will be awesome. I am meeting "J" tonight about 7pm, he is coming from Asheville and I am overjoyed, more excited than usual. We have talked all week and got into some good conversations! God, please let him be someone I am attracted to and have some chemistry with!! He seems all well and good now but i just hope I feel something when we meet up tonight. We will be going to get some drinks, dinner and play some mini-golf and head back to my place. I expect it will fun, no doubt I usually have fun no matter what I do. Then tomorrow I am hanging out with a guy from work who is pretty cool and DJ's locally in Chlt. Then having dinner with "T" at Pizza Hut with his kids and chill out for awhile then later will be going to Mooresville to meet another guy, "T", and have some fun. We will prob end up in bar in that area most of night but hey it is cool with me. Then Sunday I am having "D" over to see my place, hang out and cook with me. He invited me for dinner earlier this yr and we had fun til he got tooo drunk but this time I have more control of everything!! I am def looking forward to this weekend especially and most of tonight.I got a very weird response from"J' from Asheville when we spoke about my being "Bi"-sexual. He has some trust issues and feels I may find a woman and do things behind his back..way too soon for all that. I mean I havent' been with a woman in a couple yrs now and DEF not looking for one either. Strange conversation!!Today was overall a great day, it was kinda slow at work but I tried to stay buisy. At lunch today I made a BIG purchase for my new place..I bought a $1400 pillowtop mattress set for $390.00!!! It gets delivered next week because it had to be ordered but I wheeled and dealed and got what I wanted for an AWESOME price!So I cannot wait to have that awesome bed next week-end..It will be super sweet!!Well off for the weekend, cannot wait to let you know what happens...cya yall soon..have a great weekend..byebye
So here it is Wednesday and the week is almost over. I am relieved for some reason, probably cause I have plans already in the works for the weekend. As many of you know already, I have my personals ad back on Yahoo & think it is doing pretty good. I have had some responses and sent out a few. It is just a matter of being able to talk to the guys and go from there. I am anticipating a fun weekend & being worry-free. Not planning on doing much in the way of housework, it is going to be "Jenny time". I am hoping one of the "dates" go well enough so that I might have someone to watch Sunday's race with me!! It would be great if I met a man who is into racing {like I am} and hope it is someone I feel a connection with overall.
So, work is quite slow this week, has to do with people being out with their kids for Spring Break. What I would give to have Spring Break again and take the time to go somewhere exotic for a few days.. Oh well, such is Life right now! My life it really turning around, I feel I making good strides, and hope things keep going in the positive direction they have been lately. I just wish I had someone to welcome home at night afterwork, cuddle with during a movie and have good times/memories together. I want that someone special in my life, I am feeling a lot of emptiness with being alone for so long. I want a Mr. Right to come into my life & be someone I want to spend my life with (after much thought & discussion). As mentoned in prior entries, I am destined to be a Wife & Mother. I am having a harder time with the fact my barely 4 yr marriage fell apart, that I definitely do not want to go back with Ben and being alone. **Don't get me wrong I love living by myself and doing for me, but having another person involved and sharing in my life, would be wonderful. I had my future all planned out and expectations (during the marriage) of so much in my life and NOW I have new ones in mind. It feels strange starting over in the dating scene, there is so much more to think about and consider and figuring out who has "alterior" motives. I believe there is a "Right" man out there in NC whom I can have a meaningful/long term relationship w/ and be truly happy. Someone who will treat me with the respect I deserve, love I need/want and opportunity to live our lives happily. I will not settle for 2nd Best this time NOR accept things that I do not value or consider wrong in life. I have standards I will not step down from and expect the same in return. Honesty is very important to me. Lying & deceiving will get you nowhere with me.
Oh well so much for the tirade--I will just remain at peace w/my life right now and take each day as a new beginning to my life. Everyday is another chance to meet someone wonderful!
Just a Tidbit of Info on the Real Color of Jenny: Your true color is Red!
Your color is red, the color of racy sportscars, blushing cheeks, and luscious roses. Red symbolizes passion, romance, and love. So, since you're ruled by red, you probably trust your feelings more than your brain and tend to act spontaneously. If you see something you want, you go for it without thinking twice — impulsive is your middle name. You don't wait around for people to make decisions, either; you dive right in. Quite the romantic, you pay close attention to your emotions. In fact, if your heart isn't in what you're doing, you won't be satisfied. Of course, even when you do pour all your energy into the projects you tackle, your impetuous nature means your passions can shift as frequently as the wind. That's why some reds have trouble with commitment. Our advice? Next time you're feeling fickle, think before you act, if possible. You might be surprised at the results. Overall, though, it's great to be red. No one lives life more completely than you do.
Ugh.. Monday...UGH
My "big" plans for weekend all fell apart and It worked out for the best! Friday was odd, to say the least. I left work & thought I had a bunch of plans this weekend, which most of them did not pan out like planned. I was relieved mostly because I did indeed get alot more work done and have more $$ in my pocket today because of this fact. I didn't go out on any dates & it was completely cool with me. I decided (early) Friday night that I was not going out and I stuck with it. I decided I wanted to spend the weekend at my home, doing things I wanted to get through by myself and hav not distractions. I had the chance to sleep in, cook, clean and organize and get things where they are supposed to be. I am talking to a couple of guys and hope we can all get together soon (this week). I had help from Ben to set up my bed this weekend, (the head/foot board) and they look great. I found out I do not have a queen bed in room so in the next couple of weeks I will be going out to buy a new mattress in Queen. It is no wonder sheets didnt fit right and all..but it is big enough for me, nonetheless. I will do some looking & buy one, once I find one I like , it will be my 1st Big Purchase for my place!! I hope to get the local circulars and check it out. This week should be fairly busy for me, I have plans with some friends to get together and come see my place. I am quite excited to share my new place with friends and be able to entertain as well. I am glad I have the TV set up in my bedroom and having fun doing things around the house. I feel I am starting to feel even more comfortable and enjoying the living alone even more than expected. I am more excited about getting out and meeting more people I have been talking to lately and have mroe fun and cut loose. I haven't been out dancing & for drinks in a long time so I hop maybe this weekend will be a good opportunity. I am getting the get out & do something fun itch so I will take initiative to do it soon.Well work was fairly quiet today, I hadnt much to do but at least I get to look busy, right? Well keep you posted with anything NEW in my life...
Freaky Friday..Wild Weekend Ahead
First off...We have "Dr. Matt", the sex/relationship advisor, on his blog this week. Matt is on some kick about men/women, fantasies, and how to satisfy the raging beast within. Surprisingly, posted his "sexual fantasy" in good detail so that all viewers will get all hot & bothered & go home to jump in bed with the respective partners..Just an idea of mine. It sure did get me thinking about wild, sexual, crazy thoughts! Honestly, I could use some of what he mentioned and make it last for a good while too. Most men I have "been" with have been lame and not really into unleashing their wild and explorative side in bed--BORING. But I found it very entertaining how Matt explains his views on sex in general.Anways, my weekend should be a GOOD one! I will be in the "date mode" and I am very excited. Besides being able to sleep in for two days, I have a couple dates lined up. I am hoping to meet at least 2 or 3 this weekend, if time allows. I love having the chance to go out, meet new men and make some friends. I have been talking to a few guys for the past week and now it's time we meet. I think it is great we can keep it simple & casual, for drinks, see how the mood feels when we talk and etc. Personally, I hate the stuffy typical first date so I try to make it as casual and relaxed/comfortable as possible. The dating scene is different for me this time around, I hadn't dated much before I met my ex and now that I have chance to,it is just a whole NEW world for me. It is fun and I am very safe when I go out and meet people. I just look at it like I am going on "blind dates", thats what they are for most part. Pictures never show the true self until you meet in person. It is just I am older now and more interested "in" the person I am meeting, what they value & believe in and how they look at relationships. I can care less how many people they slept with or how many times they have been dumped. I tend to look for qualities I want in my future mate and go with that. I will cut dates off due to no attraction, no interesting conversation or just lousy company.
*Honestly, there's a guy, who is working on an audit and DAMN he is HOT. He has that big & muscular body but gentle look about him and I am contemplating asking him out for a drink after work (sometime). He seems interested in me and I definitely feel a sincere interest in him. He is blond and got a great smile & good-looking. He will be here for a few months but don't know when the right time would be to do this. There is something about him that makes me smile bigger when he is around and smiles back at me, geez, I am never one to ask someone out and be blunt but I may take the chance soon, cuz you never know til you ask or try??
So i finally got my TV all connected and I am absolultely loving it tremendously. It is completely sweet having a TV in my bedroom and having room for all the belongings. I anticipate having the whole house ready by end of month, as I see it now. I still have to get shelves for my fragile items and get a DVD stand for all my movies. I hope all goes well with my dates and maybe I will be lucky and find someone where everything clicks and we can be more than friends. I will keep an open mind in everything this weekend and see how it all goes. Work has been soo slow today and I am just sitting at my desk chatting, answering phones and sending faxes/email to employees. At least I am a being paid and just got to keep up with everyone in office.Well catch up with you next week sometime. I should be able to connect from home in a matter of 2 weeks, Dad is getting me a computer for home, it will be a desktop but hell it is something I wont have to pay for! I know he said it is a I-Mac and it is quick and 17" screen..so Yippe for me once again..more things to have for my place!Have a great weekend...cya later~!
Thank God It is Almost Friday--
WOW It sure has been a crazy and busy week for me. I have been fairly busy at work & happy Friday is tomorrow and I can start my weekend. I have 3 dates this weekend. I have been speaking to a few guys and will be meeting them this weekend. I am very exicted and looking forward to seeing if we click or not. All of them I been meeting through yahoo personals or Hi5.com and they seem pretty nice, so why not take that chance? Either way I can get out and be more social than I have been in last month. Rob from last Saturday wants to get together but not sure I can see him or not this week, we will play it by ear; I hate not being readily available for everyone but I will just have fun & go with the flow.
**So browsing 'someone's' blog yesterday, I found out he is unemployed
YET again. I cant imagine being without a job and money for very long. It would drive me nuts, guess he will depend on his girlfriend like he did with me (history keeps repeating itself with him) and she will help him out til he finds something he LOVES again. Funny how life keeps shoveling you shit when all you put out is shit in life...Life's a bitch!
On another note, I did finally get my LCD TV today, after waiting for hours in my office last night for NON-delivery!! I was very disappointed but today I am much better and very happy right now. Cannot wait to go home, connect all the stuff up and watch TV in my room in a different way...LCD/High Def. I am definitely being spoiled by my parents but they are just very proud of me and my accomplishments since beginning of yr. I work hard and play even harder, so I want to! I just want to live my life with no exceptions or explanations. I love being free and able to choose where, who and what I want in my life, I love being in a place by myself. It helps me realize how good I can have it if I keep working hard. Just stay focused on what's important and follow my dream and heart.
Well this weekend will be busy for me, with dates and things to do.. Plan to go out tomorrow and Saturday night uptown to do some dancing & drinks...Will catch you all later...
It is almost a week since I spoke with Randy and don't know what is going on??! We were supposed to get up together Saturday and I did not hear anything from him. I am not about to chase someone down who I thought was clearly into me. Oh well, his loss if he doesnt' call anymore. SO, moving along I made sure I had a great weekend!Time Warner got me all hooked up with DVR & cable in bedroom & living room!! David M came over & stayed Friday night. He is such a great friend (with "benefits") and he listens to me and we can talk more openly. It is so nice being around him and all, I have a feeling we will rekindle our relationship and see what happens from here on out. We spent the night watching NCAA & made several Yager-bombs! We both got a lil tipsy and chilled out all night. Made our way to bed around 1 am and woke up to have breakfast and chill out around my place. After he left I cleaned up and organized some stuff in my room, everything is still in transition & I do need to take a bunch of boxes back to storage to eliminate clutter all over.
After running around a bit in town, I finally got my oil changed at Ben's shop, it was so overdue. Later that evening I met Rob, from yahoo personals who I have been talking to for months now, for a couple drinks in Davidson. It was nice, we talked for a couple hrs and then I left to go home. I was a little nervous and I personally was a lil bored but I will give him another chance to see what can trasnpire with us. He is anxious to see where this goes and we plan on seeing each other this weekend! I invited Ben over later that night so he could help me Sunday pick up my TV at Circuit City. So Ben came over around 12am (Sat) and slept over so we can get some things done at my place Sunday.
**Mind you, we dont have any sex or physical contact, we are just friends and we hang out, nothing more! He is a good friend now, just wish things could of been different for us but they aren't. He is someone I can open up to after all this time and express myself freely. It is weird how things have changed since I left a yr ago. He is same "old Ben" and nothing has changed, he is still lazy, unmotivated and has a cocky attitude to go with it. As I have said before, I don't see myselfchanging my mind and giving him another chance, he just won't make changes necessary to be in a marriage with me. A good friend once said "A Tiger cannot change his stripes" and I see the proof nowadays.
Sunday was a lazy day, we both slept in a bit, watched some TV and relaxed. Found out TV couldn't be picked up cause of issues with having original credit card Dad used to buy TV for me but at least I got some other things done around house and Ben helped me a lot. I cooked spaghetti, meatballs and sauce for dinner, which turned out GREAT. We chilled out all day and night and he left for night.
So here it is Tuesday afternoon and I am having a good week so far. I have seen Ben more frequently and beginning to feel maybe we need more space to do our own thing. He expects to come over a lot and I do have fun with him but I don't need him confused over how he feels and what I feel. I think we will definitely need to discuss boundaries and expectations on his & my part. I don't want him to feel we are getting back together but I want to keep him around so the divorce will go smoothly too. Anyways, I have been busy and taking care of alot of things for myself. I will have my new LCD TV hooked up tonight, hang out with Tigger and make leftovers for dinner.
Things I need to accomplish over next two weeks: {1} Go thru some of the boxes I have in garage so I can figure out what I really want and what will go in storage. {2} Switch out the sofa in the garage with the one in living room, it is much better to sit & look at. I hope to get most of these things into storage by the weekend. {3} Next payday, I will get new curtains for the bedroom windows, so I can block out the sun in mornings! Just haven't figured out what color I want for windows, need to figure out my bedroom theme first. {4} There are still some pictures to hang on walls and small things to do thru but the house is pretty much moved in. I am happy with it and hoping I can stay there for a long while. It just feels comfortable and good for me. Granted, I haven't had many nights where I am all alone but company is good for me right now. I have been without for a while now and need to reconnect with everyone. I understand I need time for myself and all, and I will have that but just need to spend time with friends now.
Well life is going so good for me, I cannot complain at all. I will keep moving forward with the divorce in the summer and get a fresh start in the relationship area. One day I will know I will find the One..He is out there somewhere bit for now, I will have fun and enjoy my life daily~~
HAPPY St. Patrick's Day to all the Irish in the World!! Since I am not Irish, I am not wearing Green but I will be doing my fair share of Drinking tonight & thru the weekend. I have been good for over a week so now is my time to let loose a bit and have some fun (again).I have a confession, I am feeling very jealous of someone's relationship (Matt & Alecia) and I am not sure why I even care to mention it. It is getting to the point of WHY can I NOT find someone who will be the Man I am Searching for? Men I meet have been nice and all but no physical attraction or something is "wrong" with them. It can be many things I am pretaining to but I am not being specific. I want a man in my life who will be smart, drug-free, compassionate, funny, employed, experienced in knowing what LOVE is and just enjoys life. I don't consider myself ugly or overweight at all, others tell me how attractive I am and how much I offer to anyone who is contact with me. I feel good about myself and granted i have made mistakes but who doesn't? I am a easy person to know, laid back(most of time) and great sense of humor. I like going out and doing things but I also like hanging out at home and watching TV/Movies. I feel I may be doing something that is making myself less desirable, but I don't see what it can be. I am honest, about my life & marriage, don't mind throwing down and having fun. I am very caring, loving, affectionate and learning not to be "Clingy or Needy". It is all a learning process when it comes to relationships and I learned a lot the hard way!So tonight I have plans to have David M fromTechnocom and I am looking forward to seeing him. It has been a couple weeks and I miss the closeness we had a few months ago. I was willing to give everything to be with him, then he flaked out on me. It is just weird but do miss him a lot more than I thought. Granted he has committment issues and certain things going on with him are an issues for me, BUT I enjoy his company and love his big arms around me. He has a lot to offer in a relationship just not at this time, possibly. We are very comfortable around one another and he is accepting of me & my issues. I just hope tonight we can get back to old days and have some fun. He is my best Yagerbomb drinking buddy--LOLWell this weekend should be full of household tasks for me to tackle at the house and meet up with a bunch of friends in between. I am getting a 20" LCD Flat Screen TV for my bedroom which I am soo happy about, should get it Sunday from my parents, just have to pick it up. It was quite a surprise when Dad told me this Wedneaday afternoon...they are very proud of me and my positive life path. I am taking control of things much better and facing things I never did before.Well off for the rest of the day...Catch you all next week!!! Huggs...
WOW..WOW Wednesday
Today is my first day back at AmWINS after a LONG & Tiring road-trip to NJ & PA for Aunt Joyce's memorial service/ceremony. It was a dreadful drive up to NJ Friday morning, we hit a 5 mile backup on 85N in Salisbury and then had very few rush hour delays the rest of day. It was very exhausting and draining. Early Saturday we all drove up to PA for the service, cemetary memorial and dinner with all the family. It was very emotional all day and I was ready for bed by 10pm. It was really nice to see a cousin I havent seen in maybe 5 yrs and he brought his baby girl, AVA, who is 1 y/o and an absolute angel. She was awesome to play with and hold all day & night. We all got up Sunday and had a big breakfast in NY and then went to my Aunt's house to hang out for a while. We left there after lunch time and drove back to NJ. We even stopped at Hot Dog Johhny's (a famous stop off on way to Poconos) and had some lunch, Yummy food too!! It was nice to be with family and share in the good memories we had of my Aunt and know she is at peace in Heaven.Monday morning we left NJ to come back to Charlotte, damn what a long drive all day it was for us all!! Seems it took forever to get back to Charlotte and to my house. I never want to make that trip by myself --EVER. Thankfully, Uncle Walter drove up in his car w/ me & cousin Stephen in the car. We laughed, talked and listened to all kinds of music. It was fun to some degree but I was very happy to get home & have time in my place and with Tigger.Tuesday morning I woke up at 9am and went straight to Time Warner to get Cable set-up in my house for Friday early evening. I am thrilled I will have my TV & cable to watch my normal shows I like and will also have DVR to record my shows I miss when I am working & all. It will be nice to have it and have something else to do when I have company over too.I got my mail from Tiffany's house (finally) and drove to Angel's to get my Pure Romance inventory and printer. We talked for a while and she caught me up on the drama in her life. I am relieved I am no longer living there and hoping the best for her. I went to Walmart to get some essentials for myself and groceries, since I didnt buy much last week before i left. I got home and hung out all afternoon organizing my bills/paystubs & etc from past couple weeks. I now have all my mail going to my new address, have my new D/L w/ new addy and bank info. I am happy I was able to have Tuesday off so I can take care of a lot before weekend.Well Randy just called to say he was missing me and definitely wanting to hang out with me this weekend and spend more time with me too. I missed him a lot when I was away but absense makes the heart grown fonder! He wants to go out this weekend and have some fun and relax, he will prob stay at my house Friday or Saturday night and I am looking forward to seeing him. feel like i need to explain some things to him about how I feel about him but I will wait til the time is right. Honestly, it was just awkward last Thursday night when he stayed over, I know I care for him (as he cares for me) but the mood was not right so we did not participate in sexual acts, which is fine with me. It shouldnt be a necessity for us and I dont' see it as one. Upon returning to the office today, I got an email from my best friend, Eric, who lives in Las Vegas this weekend. His wife Tonya (31 y/o) had a mini-stroke on left side of brain this past weekend. I mean how much more does this family have to endure?? They seem to be faced with hardships often and it is so sad. Her father passed away last month, she has had miscarriage in the last yr & having a toddler running around is hard enough! Anyways he will keep me posted as to what the next step is in her rehabilitation and all, but I cannot imagine what Eric is going through right now. He is pretty much going to be mom & dad for a bit here. I feel for him and hope he will be able to get through this and know it is out of hs hands and God will take over.I have been feeling not quite myself since Saturday, i think it has to do with the Memorial, the memory of Aunt Joyce and knowing life is very unpredictable. I am feeling a lot of sadness and emptiness I havent felt in a long while. But I know this will pass and life goes on. I should be happy and enjoying my new life and moving forward to make better for myself.
Well I am off for the night....sweet dreams to all..IWhen I get home tonight, I will be making meatballs, sauce & pasta tonight for dinner...yum yum... My g/f who is having a baby in October will be coming over tomorrow so I am prepping for dinner. Catch ya later..Bye
Thriving for the Weekend...
How EXCITING, today is my last day in town before I head back up to NJ/PA/NY for the weekend!! I am dreading all the driving but I am happy to see all my relatives I have not seen since my wedding day. Unfortunately not for a good reason, sadly enough! I took a long lunch to retrieve items I forgot about in my storage unit. It took me an hr & 1/2 to go & come back; but at least I got the items I wanted and a suitcase for my trip. I am relieved and looking forward to leaving today and getting my nails done and relaxing tonight. I still have things I need to go thru at home but pretty much all unpacked for most part. Mostly excited that Randy will be visiting later, after work, and staying until I leave in morning. He makes me feel good and very happy. I smile more when he is with me & feel a sense of "missing" him when he is gone. I never thought someone I could meet online, who is younger than me, would make me this happy. He is quiet but when we are together, we are laughing, joking, talking about our lives & dreams and background and enjoying each other's company. And with him, its isnt a sexual thing, very far from, which makes me feel good when we are together. I am the 1st woman he met offline and that makes me feel a little special. He is very "sheltered" in life, as I am, so we have alot of things in common. Just wanting to unwind & enjoy our time together tonight/am.
Work is GREAT, I cannot complain at all, I get paid every two weeks and I love my paycheck!! I never been paid so much in my life and things could only get better from here on out! The office I work in is wonderful. The staff, processes, procedures that are implemented are right in line with what I wanted in a good job. I wake up everyday thanking God for blessing me with great friends/associates, employment & the little blessings in between. I am lucky to have good friends who have stuck by me and have been there thru the good and the bad in my life. I never imagined myself being where I am today a yr ago!! It is just about a year since I met Matt & soon after left Ben!! Things sure moved quickly and I am a better/more developed woman for going thru what I did in the last yr.Well logging off for now, will catch up when I return Wednesday the 15th....tata for now.
Today went fairly slow, just re-doing personnel files so we're all organized & up to date. I am anxious to get home to my Tigger, change clothes and tackle more unpacking. I get so overwhelmed with all the boxes, I never thought I had so much stuff until NOW. It is unreal what I have and kept thru the years. But everything will either be at my house or in storage, since I dont have agarage to store items. I am having fun going thru boxes and seeing what I will find, just worried cause I havent seen the things i had in my room at tiffany's (old roomie). I had some sentimental things Mom bought me when I first moved in and all that really mean a lot to me & would like to have in my place now. If it isnt here at the house, the items MUST be in storage and I can get it all tomorrow when I get my luggage for trip. I will be so happy when I can come home and relax, turn on TV and hang out, make dinner, and not have to unpack. It will be a big relief when It is all over!!
So as mentioned previously, I will be leaving sometime in am on Friday for NJ. I am really dreading the ride up cause it is long and I am not exactly with the most fun company. But my Aunt's memorial is VERY important for me to attend, so I am going. I will spent most of my time during the weekend in the car, sitting on my ass. Fun fun...just like the trip Matt & I took to his Brother's wedding in Hamptons.. So anyway, I did just recently check out HIS blog again, some time has passed since I checked it last, and BOY what a life he has. He is so confused and basically doing the same shit with his now g/f that he went thru with me...It is that 4-5 months of being together itch he gets, I sure didnt see it coming til it was too late. Well such is life. All along he thought I couldnt handle being on my own and having no money & eating PB&J sandwhiches and mac & cheese...won't ever happen!! I make good money and budgeting better than before and won't allow myself to go without all the ammenties in life..
I am definitely looking forward to seeing Randy tomorrow night, we will be staying up late and chilling at my place. I figure I can sleep in car on way up to NJ and all Friday. It wil be fun to spend time together before I head out and then we can make plans for the weekend when I return. I know i haven't spent too much time talking about "us" but we are taking it slow and seeing if this can be something for us both to be OK with. We have a way of opening up and allowing ourselves to know one another on levels most men don't care to venture. I am glad I met him and excited about seeing what will come of this.
I am hoping I can get down to Time Warner Cable Tuesday so I can get cable hooked up and be able to watch TV.It sucks having nocable, just DVD's to watch at night. I plan to get a TV in my room so I watch cable, DVD's and etc.. I am hoping to get one soon, I will just have to get a paper in Sunday to see Sales on TV's.
Well time to logg off & get on my way home...unpack and get more settled. Catch you later....
Tonight is going to be a BIG night....BIG push to get a lot of boxes emptied and things in their place! I plan to go straight home, make myself a Yaeger bomb, and change into comfortable loungewear and tackle my unpacking. I want everything to have a place and purpose. I don't think I will be able to get it all done before Friday morning but I will try to get a good bit of it done. I hate living with boxes everywhere but it is what happens when you move. I am so happy and very comfortable, granted I get lonely at night all by myself in bed but that is part of being single. I love coming home and knowing I have no one to deal with or someone bitching or anything, just me & Tigger. It is great and it has given me a great sense of what I enjoy in my life. **Randy will coming over after work Thursday and spending the night until I leave Friday morning, which I am definitely looking forward to more than anything!!
So Friday I will heading to NJ with Uncle Walter and cousin Stephen. We will drive out to NJ and then Saturday drive with my family to PA for Aunt's memorial service at Church then dinner with the family. The drive to Vestal NY to stay overnight and come back to NJ Sunday. It is just a long fucking weekend of driving and sitting in the car--I'm dreading it even more so NOW. I just hope I can sleep on the way and catch up with everyone while in car. Walter & I will be driving back to NC on Monday and I thankfully took off Tuesday so I can sleep in and finish unpacking too...I will have whole day to take care of stuff. I am glad I will have the day to relax and do the unpacking at my pace and not feel rushed.
This week will fly by pretty quickly, Monday sure did. I am getting a feeling of closure with Ben, we see each other and I feel even less with him. He just thinks everything is fine and he is cleared from the responsibilities of the house that is now forclosed. I am wondering what will happen now, that we have everything out and there is so much money owed for loan. He is basically screwed for the next few years. He has nothing to offer creditors to pay towards the past due payments due on utilities either! Not my problem though..I won't lose sleep over it!!
I am meeting Sara for lunch today, we haven't caught up since she had her DWI a month ago. She asked if we can do lunch and i agreed. I miss my g/f's and I am hurt by Angel, because she hasn't even called or anything since have officially moved out. She was super busy with her new men when her daughter was away now, she wont even talk to me when I move out and do something good for myself??!! WTF! I guess she is too caught up in her own world to care how I am doing and etc... Oh well, jus shows how much I don't matter in her life, but then again, does she really in mine? I think I just cared cause I lived there and I honestly got sick of all her problems and drama. I am so glad to be out of there and into my place and taking care of me & Tigger.
Well off to lunch soon and will catch you up when i return from NJ...bye bye
WOW, How Fast did that Weekend Fly By???
Good afternoon! My weekend went as well as planned, if not better. My move-in on Saturday was stress-free and fun. It was tiring but I am glad I got all my stuff in one U-haul trip. I was exhausted loading the truck but unloading went by very quick. I got lazy after everything was emptied into my house but I have lots of boxes to go thru, sort and put in its place..But I was productive.So Friday night was good. I heard from David (from technocom, who I was dating end of last yr) and he was anxious to come up and see me and my NEW place. So I agreed and we hung out, drank a few yaeger bombs and beers. We spent some quality time together which was pretty nice. Its been several weeks since we hung out and now that I have my own place, I am all for seeing people. He decided to stay over since he drank quite a bit and left early on Saturday morning. We caught up on new things in our lives and chilled, relaxed and listening to music.I picked up the U-haul and got my day started. Robin came up to Chlt to meet me at my place and then we jumped in truck and started the moving process. It took all of 3 1/2 hours to load & unload everything but at least it is all at my place now. Afterwards I went to pick up some essentials for my night with Randy and came back to shower & get ready for his arrival. When he did, we hung out had a drink, gave him the tour and decided to grab some dinner nearby. We ate and got some other supplies for "talking to elvis" and got back to my place for the night. We rolled up "elvis" and got comfortable in my bedroom and turned on some music and chilled for the night. We drank several Yaeger Bombs and talked alot about our backgrounds, future goals and what we are looking for now. He is such a real gentleman and he really took the time to get to know things about me, not too many men care to know. We talked about everything and had A-L-O-T of fun in the process. I will just say it was a night I had wanted for a LONG time and definitely wanting another opportunity to have a night like that soon. We enjoyed each other til we couldn't anymore and slept next to one another perfectly. I look forward to having him come over Thursday night so we can have more time together before I leave for NJ/PA this Friday.Sunday was a slow morning but I got my kitchen all unpacked and things boxed to go back to storage & stuff for Ben to have as well. I was happy with that. I got help moving a dresser into my room with a mirror, more boxes into my room to be unpacked and just going thru stuff at my pace. I watched 2 movies last night--Harold & Kumar Go to White Castle, and The Incredibles; movies I had but never watched. I feel so good being in my new place and knowing I am there all by myself and can do as I want and be happy. Ben has been over a couple times to help out, which is nice but I am making sure it isnt going to be a constant thing for me to have going on. I would definitely want Randy over a lot more and spend time with him and have him become very secure with me and be comfortable.I am having a slow day at work and this afternoon is dragging a bit. I have a few things to work on now but I can wait a while until I am more bored. I will be going to Super-Walmart tonight for things I need for house and groceries, very much needed trip. I been putting it off since last week and NOW I need to go. Well enough about me...will catch up as the week goes by...
Freaking WIld Friday
Hello all.. Well it has been 2 nights I have stayed at my place, it is great. I slept so well and had not problems adjusting to living alone. Tigger is doing well and enjoying all the freedom she has on the house. I feel so happy and refreshed cause of this move and knowing I am moving forward with my life once and for all.
I will have a U-haul tomorrow for the bigger part of my move, including gas grill, dishes, and everything else I want at the house. I will keep the storage unit for the remainder of the items I wont take but it will be less full for sure. I want to go get some curtains for bedroom on Sunday and decor to hang them because it is too bright in my room without them. I will need to hang some pics and get things the way I want them.
I am looking forward to having Robin with me to load & unpack my things, she is so important in my life and I lvoe her so much. This will be the 1st time we share in something important in my life in a LONG time. I will be having Randyover at night so we will be able to enjoy it together. I have got a whole night planned out, set for some romance and relaxation. I plan on taking advantage of the privacy we will have and alone time that will bring!! Bubble bath, good music and one on one action!!! Yes, I have someone who is awesome and worth having a great night with. He is very excited and anxious to see me and spent time at my place.
As this weekend comes & goes, I willbe left with a big smile and happiness. This is the most focused I have been with something in long time; it is great coming home to my cat and doing as I please. Just need to fill frig & pantry with food now so I dont order take out every night!!
Well..I am so hungry so I will go to lunch and catch up later
I'm Moving..Today...
Today is the 1st Day I am able to spend the night at my new place, I now have a place to call HOME. I am ready to get out of work today at 1pm and start the moving process. I will get as much as I can get into my car this afternoon with clothes and etc from Angel's. I would like to set up my bedroom better and get stuff put away so I can get more done Saturday morning/afternoon with Robin. I am soo tickled pink with excitement and anxious to start my new life, on my own. I am looking forward to staying" in" tonight and getting acquainted with my OWN place. This will definitely be a new adventure in the next couple of weeks!! I cant stop smiling since I knew I had gotten the place and now, it will be much more REAL for me!
I am bubbling over with excitement and cannot wait for this afternoon to come. I work tomorrow and friday so I will not overdo it today but can't help to think of all the things I can do today! There is just so much I can get through, with little help. I know I will be making couple trips to Angel's for stuff I can use this week. I am trying to figure out how much I need & will use before weekend. Tigger is already at the house since last night, she has to get used to her new surroundings and feel comfortable being there. I want so badly for everything to work out for me and I can move forward with my life and enjoy the independence. As mentioned before, this is my 1st time living alone and I think it is great for me. This is definitely something I wanted for a long time and NOW is the perfect time for me to do it.
Saturday night is going to be fun, Randy will be coming over and spending the night with me, we will be celebrating my move & new adventure in life. We will get some dinner, drinks and chill at my place..watch some DVD's and relax for the night. Maybe enjoy a romantic bubble bath and give massages, sounds like an idea to me!!I am just wanting to spend time with him privately so I can get a better feel for him and his thoughts about what he wants from all of this. I know he is a great guy and very much repsectful and sweet, just need to know more about HIM~~
Well off to take care of business before I get out of here...talk to you soon..
I was thinking of looking into leasing a laptop at Aaron's Store so can have a computer set up at the house too..hmmmm ideas?!!!
We will see....good bye for now
