MyWorldAsIChoose2LiveIt

Tonight is going to be a BIG night....BIG push to get a lot of boxes emptied and things in their place! I plan to go straight home, make myself a Yaeger bomb, and change into comfortable loungewear and tackle my unpacking. I want everything to have a place and purpose. I don't think I will be able to get it all done before Friday morning but I will try to get a good bit of it done. I hate living with boxes everywhere but it is what happens when you move. I am so happy and very comfortable, granted I get lonely at night all by myself in bed but that is part of being single. I love coming home and knowing I have no one to deal with or someone bitching or anything, just me & Tigger. It is great and it has given me a great sense of what I enjoy in my life. **Randy will coming over after work Thursday and spending the night until I leave Friday morning, which I am definitely looking forward to more than anything!!

So Friday I will heading to NJ with Uncle Walter and cousin Stephen. We will drive out to NJ and then Saturday drive with my family to PA for Aunt's memorial service at Church then dinner with the family. The drive to Vestal NY to stay overnight and come back to NJ Sunday. It is just a long fucking weekend of driving and sitting in the car--I'm dreading it even more so NOW. I just hope I can sleep on the way and catch up with everyone while in car. Walter & I will be driving back to NC on Monday and I thankfully took off Tuesday so I can sleep in and finish unpacking too...I will have whole day to take care of stuff. I am glad I will have the day to relax and do the unpacking at my pace and not feel rushed.

This week will fly by pretty quickly, Monday sure did. I am getting a feeling of closure with Ben, we see each other and I feel even less with him. He just thinks everything is fine and he is cleared from the responsibilities of the house that is now forclosed. I am wondering what will happen now, that we have everything out and there is so much money owed for loan. He is basically screwed for the next few years. He has nothing to offer creditors to pay towards the past due payments due on utilities either! Not my problem though..I won't lose sleep over it!!

I am meeting Sara for lunch today, we haven't caught up since she had her DWI a month ago. She asked if we can do lunch and i agreed. I miss my g/f's and I am hurt by Angel, because she hasn't even called or anything since have officially moved out. She was super busy with her new men when her daughter was away now, she wont even talk to me when I move out and do something good for myself??!! WTF! I guess she is too caught up in her own world to care how I am doing and etc... Oh well, jus shows how much I don't matter in her life, but then again, does she really in mine? I think I just cared cause I lived there and I honestly got sick of all her problems and drama. I am so glad to be out of there and into my place and taking care of me & Tigger.

Well off to lunch soon and will catch you up when i return from NJ...bye bye

posted by MyLifeAsIChoose2LiveIt @ 11:00 AM