MyWorldAsIChoose2LiveIt

LONG Holiday Weekend Ahead....

Thank God today is the beginning of a 3 day weekend for most of us out there! It sure has been a week of constant work and trying to keep up with my new job. I am sure learning a lot and anxious to jump right in and be on my way up again. I am alone in the office again today and Tuesday since my two associates will be on vacation and out of office. It will be a very quiet day here and I expect that we will be able to leave early. I plan to work on research while he is working Saturday on a project for our Staples account so we can save money in many more areas. Of course, quality time with husband as usual, probably meet up with his friends this weekend at their new place. They have a pool and jacuzzi so it would be nice to hang over there.

There is something stirrng within me lately and I am not able to put my finger on it. I just have a strange feeling I MAY be pregnant but I am not counting on it. Just some little things I have noticed but in reality I have had a lot of "worry" regarding the biopsy and parents trip and regular daily woes. So it is probably not likely but it always happens when you don't think about it and let it just happen...SO who knows...I will get thru the weekend and thru next week and if nothing, them I will get a test.
Granted, this is not the most opportune time for being pregnant but I know we aren't taking precautions either. I feel we are kinda fooling ourselves to believe everything is perfectly fine and I know it isn't, it never will be until... There are issues we haven't discussed because he refuses to talk about them, anymore. He sees it as if it is our past, then we just need to let them go and not face them. I differ with my opinion, I feel we need to work thru these issues. I trust him more than ever and know there is NOTHING he won't do to have make me happy. He tries so hard to please me and I do the same to make things great for both of us. We are taking care of our finances and paying things off as we can, a much better plan than before. I am secure in our marriage and have no reason to be unhappy. We talk more often and are honest about everything. Things have been going very well for us, even though we have our moments of anxiety. Yes, I agree we still need to go to marriage counseling and work thru our problems that are there no matter how much we deny it.
I did find out yesterday when I placed a call to Utilities for old house that it has been sold and someone has been living there. It is definitely a sad thought since I lost even more time in that beautiful home when I left him last March. It sucks to think what could of been if we stayed together to begin with and get help then. No point in rehashing shit I cannot control.

Anyways on a brighter note...Plans for this weekend consist of getting some much needed sleep, work on Staples research project for office and hang out at home. Watch some football, wrestling and any other shows we DVR'd. I don't want to have a plan for anything and since weather will be iffy, I will just wing it. I do have a small assignment from counselor so I need to finsihs before session next week.

Well toodles until the next update...catch ya'll soon

posted by MyLifeAsIChoose2LiveIt @ 9:02 AM