After running around a bit in town, I finally got my oil changed at Ben's shop, it was so overdue. Later that evening I met Rob, from yahoo personals who I have been talking to for months now, for a couple drinks in Davidson. It was nice, we talked for a couple hrs and then I left to go home. I was a little nervous and I personally was a lil bored but I will give him another chance to see what can trasnpire with us. He is anxious to see where this goes and we plan on seeing each other this weekend! I invited Ben over later that night so he could help me Sunday pick up my TV at Circuit City. So Ben came over around 12am (Sat) and slept over so we can get some things done at my place Sunday.
**Mind you, we dont have any sex or physical contact, we are just friends and we hang out, nothing more! He is a good friend now, just wish things could of been different for us but they aren't. He is someone I can open up to after all this time and express myself freely. It is weird how things have changed since I left a yr ago. He is same "old Ben" and nothing has changed, he is still lazy, unmotivated and has a cocky attitude to go with it. As I have said before, I don't see myselfchanging my mind and giving him another chance, he just won't make changes necessary to be in a marriage with me. A good friend once said "A Tiger cannot change his stripes" and I see the proof nowadays.
Sunday was a lazy day, we both slept in a bit, watched some TV and relaxed. Found out TV couldn't be picked up cause of issues with having original credit card Dad used to buy TV for me but at least I got some other things done around house and Ben helped me a lot. I cooked spaghetti, meatballs and sauce for dinner, which turned out GREAT. We chilled out all day and night and he left for night.
So here it is Tuesday afternoon and I am having a good week so far. I have seen Ben more frequently and beginning to feel maybe we need more space to do our own thing. He expects to come over a lot and I do have fun with him but I don't need him confused over how he feels and what I feel. I think we will definitely need to discuss boundaries and expectations on his & my part. I don't want him to feel we are getting back together but I want to keep him around so the divorce will go smoothly too. Anyways, I have been busy and taking care of alot of things for myself. I will have my new LCD TV hooked up tonight, hang out with Tigger and make leftovers for dinner.
Things I need to accomplish over next two weeks: {1} Go thru some of the boxes I have in garage so I can figure out what I really want and what will go in storage. {2} Switch out the sofa in the garage with the one in living room, it is much better to sit & look at. I hope to get most of these things into storage by the weekend. {3} Next payday, I will get new curtains for the bedroom windows, so I can block out the sun in mornings! Just haven't figured out what color I want for windows, need to figure out my bedroom theme first. {4} There are still some pictures to hang on walls and small things to do thru but the house is pretty much moved in.
I am happy with it and hoping I can stay there for a long while. It just feels comfortable and good for me. Granted, I haven't had many nights where I am all alone but company is good for me right now. I have been without for a while now and need to reconnect with everyone. I understand I need time for myself and all, and I will have that but just need to spend time with friends now.
Well life is going so good for me, I cannot complain at all. I will keep moving forward with the divorce in the summer and get a fresh start in the relationship area. One day I will know I will find the One..He is out there somewhere bit for now, I will have fun and enjoy my life daily~~
posted by MyLifeAsIChoose2LiveIt @ 5:20 PM
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