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WOW...What A Weekend

It all started Friday night after work. I spent the couple hours before Ben's arrival to get laundry done and some cleaning. I was really looking forward to going out and we planned to meet Sara & Marcus uptown in time for the Staind concert. We drove up there, got our favorite parking place that only cost $5 and walked up to the stages. We met them, hung out to see Staind and then made our way to Connelly's Pub for some drinks. We had a blast, danced some and hung out. It was very nice being with friends I haven't seen in a while. We made our way back to car and went home to chill and get to bed.

Saturday morning came too quick and Ben was off to work and I did some things around the house and then chilled out most of day, watching Walk the Line and some other shows I didn't get to watch during the week. Robin, my best friend who I haven't seen since February, came up to visit and we went to Home Depot and Walmart for some things she wanted to buy and we talked alot. It has not been a good yr since she has not been 100% healthy and I was glad to see her Saturday. While we were out at Home Depot, I had an extra housekey made for Ben, a little surprise for him this weekend. I am happy we are doing so well and I only hope it lasts this time. I really don't see any reason why it wouldn't, honestly. So I dropped his key off at his work (he was giddy with surprise) and shopped at Walmart and we went home to meet him. We all had some drinks, caught up on good times and decided to go to O'Charleys for dinner. We made plans for 4th of July to spend the day @ Robin & her husband's house with fireworks and good eatin'. We ate a great meal at O' Charley's and laughed and chatted up a storm. We truly had a great evening with her and I was tickled pink. She left soon after we got home, she lives over an hour away in SC.

Sunday.. Ben & I got up early(8am) and got our things together for the day planned at Lake Wylie with a bunch of friends. We finally got our act together and were on our way down to Lake. Unfortunately, the others didn't find a place where we could park and play so we ended up at "Girl" & Keith's place at their pool. Mind you we in the presence of 2 preggo women...Valerie is almost 5 months and Girl is just about 8 months. They are funny and was a lot of fun & we had a good afternoon of sun & fun. We each brought subs, chips, drinks and coolers, we all hung out at the pool 'til we were tired and wanted to take a nap. So we were home about 5pm and relaxed for the rest of evening. Sara called us to hang out but we ended up falling asleep and went to bed early. But at least we got some sun and fun in everyday so far!!

Monday was a very LAZY day....it was very hot and muggy, so we didn't plan to do much besides stay in and stay cool. We decided to grill out that night and made our "Infamous" Bubba Burgers...damn he can sure make some killer burgers, anyday! We had a lot of "quality" time together, we been having sex more than I ever imagined with him and enjoying ourselves in the meantime. I am truly deeply in love with Ben and I couldnt imagine my life with out this wonderful man in my life.

OK, he isn't perfect but he is working on making things better for both of us and I am happy with that. We have a counseling appt scheduled for next Wednesday and I am very excited. We will meet with a Reverand from Unity Church of Charlotte. This is a start and they don't charge for session, just donate $$ as "love offering." Thursday morning, I will meet with my therapist that is covered under my insurance to work on some issues of my own. I feel I need to get a lot of things inside of me out so I can move on with our relationship. I know he is changing his ways & attitude but his anger issues still remain & the fact I did cheat on him in the last yr. Ihave been very honest with Ben all along and he does know about "Boy-Toy Alex" and Matt from last yr. I know Ben is willing to forgive and forget but I know it has hurt him deeply. I know if I had evidence he cheated, I would be devastated! Needless to say, I did cheat and "moved on" during the yr but look at US now...we are together again & I have no regrets. I definitely feel the time apart made me realize what I wanted and HE is IT. We have some hurdles to overcome but I think with the right direction & guidance, we will make it and last forever. I know it won't be easy but who said Life is Easy? You have to work hard at something you want in your life= my marriage...

Well it is now Wednesday afternoonand I am already looking forward to the upcoming weekend! Tigger the cat will be getting her grooming done Saturday morning at 10am and I am very ahppy. She has gotten soo damn hairy and shedding all over. I will cleaning house up & down before she comes home as there isn't a shitload of hair all over my bed and carpets. There is quite a bit of things I do want to take care of this weekend, I need to get some items from Storage Unit and get some things done around the house. I will enjoy the beautiful weekend and time spent with the hubby.

Good night for now, will keep you posted on the in's & out's of this chaotic life...

posted by MyLifeAsIChoose2LiveIt @ 8:48 AM