Where Did the Weekend Go??
This picture of Ben & I was taken Saturday night when we were hanging out next door...We do make a nice couple!
WOW...it sure flew by!!! But I had a greeeaaaaat weekend and definitely looking forward to this week. Prison Break Season Finale & 24 !!! I am so hooked on these shows and excited to see what happens. AND tomorrow it's down to the last 3 of American Idols to perform! Wheeeew--its going to be a good week!
Our Friday night went very well. Ben & I met up with my g/f's Valerie, Sharon, Girl, Amanda, then their significant others for dinner at Sir Edmund Halley's. This was the 1st time they all met Ben and everybody was very comfortable. The place is a Pub/Restaurant, snuggled in the middle of a big shopping center. The appetizers, food and drinks were good. We sat there for a couple hours, drinking and talking and etc..After dinner we all went back to their house to hang out, drink some & play darts til 12:30am...got in by 1am...
I am so happy, Valerie went to Dr's Friday for her ultrasound and SHE IS HAVING A BOY!!! Sharon is having a GIRL and Girl is having a BOY. It sure has been a busy month for all of us ans seeing them so happy make me happy too. Just wish I had a part in this too. Yes, a twinge of jealousy sprouted its ugly head this weekend!!! UGH I am envious of them and their true baby bliss! I wanted to be a mom over 2 yrs ago and just want to be a MOM in the future. Well, If Ben & I can get all of this worked out, we can plan to start a family in a yr or so, and just complete our goals in this family! It will just take more time than I expected!
Saturday, I slept in til 9am, hung out a bit around my house, went & got my nails & toes manicured, got some lunch @ Bojangles, and went home to sort thru my Pure Romance stuff I brought over from storage. I am starting to get that burst of energy to really dive into this business all over again and get it rolling big time! After work, Ben brought over hot subs for dinner but we hung out some and relaxed until we were hungry. After everything, we decided to head over next door to hang out & shoot some pool/drink with the neighors! We stayed there til 1am and came home to watch the Nascar race at Darlington we DVR'd. I was exhausted by 2am and fell asleep on him, AS USUAL.
Sunday was the BEST day! We both slept in til 11am and then went out for breakfast. Went grocery shopping and picked up some neccessities for the week. Came home and did some organizing of the garage, my bedroom, kitchen and did a lot of laundry. I cooked a really nice Chicken, Potatoe & Biscuit baked dinner and we loved it. It was soo delicious and was a big portion for both of us. We watched most of our shows we been DVR'g all weekend and just relaxed all night. Didn't get into too much but we talked a lot, drove over to my storage to drop some stuff off that I don't need and went to his place where he rents a room (but not for too much longer), got some more clothes for him and visited briefly with Lori & Dave (his boss) for a while. Everyone is being supportive of our decision to make it work again & see if we can repair all the damage done and start over. I think if we truly work at it, it can work out for the long term!
Although Ben & I haven't engaged in much sexual activity together in the last yr, I think if we keep our "interests" on each other, I can definitely keep my interests on him in the bedroom.... Boy, I had forgotten how nice it was to have someone looking forward to coming home to me, sharing in our long day and wanting to hold me in their arms. He thinks it is soo wonderful how I lay with my head in his lap in bed and slowly fall asleep while he runs his fingers thru my hair or massaging my back softly. Waking up in the morning next to each other is also just as delighful. Granted this is just the beginning of something renewed for us. I have realized I have become very self conscious of my body since last summer, I just am not 100% comfortable in my skin yet. (again) Ben has an insatiable craving to see me naked (begs for it), wants to touch me all over and DEFINITELY go down on me too. He has always enjoyed "going downtown" but more so, now! I unfortunately had the "monthly visit" this weekend but hope when it is over, we can start to re-explore each other. We always had a great sex life and we were open to trying new things/toys/positions in the bedroom. That has always been a strong point in our relationship...i think the combination of unfortunate events which caused his Temporary ED almost 2 yrs ago.
I must say I have put a lot into my marriage before to the point of exhaustion and IF he shows the same amount of dedication, we can be HAPPILY married again and this time FOREVER. I do love Ben and giving US this chance to make it IS the best gift I could of given him. He is just happy to have this chance to be back with me and try it again, for good. It is not going to easy or a quick process, even though living together would be a perfect arrangement right now, financially. We understand it will take time and be a fresh start on a renewed marriage. Eventually, he will move back over with me and we can consolidate our stuff. I have such high hopes this time around, just feel it can work out now and confident he will hold up his end of the marriage. This will be a great decision for both of us!
***I just checked on Matt's (the ex-boyfriend) blog AND things are going great for him. He is still dating Alecia, he is very happy.....YES, I am slightly envious of what they have, but know if me & Ben keep working hard on making OUR marriage stronger & loving, we can have the same ultimate happiness we had before***
Well, as sands of the hourglass, so are the DAYS OF MY LIFE.....
posted by MyLifeAsIChoose2LiveIt @ 11:32 AM
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