Weird & Interesting Week thus far
Since I took off from work yesterday for some R&R (long overdue), I am feeling much more "refreshed". My week so far has been wonderful, a lot better than some I have had recently. Work is a little slow and like that I have freedom to update my blog often and keep up with friends thru messenger & e-mails. So, anyways Wednesday morning I woke up my usual time but stayed snuggled up next to Ben until he had to really get up & ready for work. From the bottom of my heart, I truly feel we belong together and the connection we have is going to be everlasting. We have something not many people have and I feel blessed we have found it again. I feel the time apart to grow and learn about ourselves was a healthy decision, I had time to experience things alone & it has only made me realize how much I do LOVE him and wouldn't change this feeling for anything. I am feeling things I haven't for soo long between us. I put up a wall between us and now slowly breaking it down so we can truly love and commit to one another. I feel a renewed sense of "marital bliss".Even though, I had mentioned in previous blogs how he hasn't changed and I wanted a divorce, I never took the time to look deeper and see what he is doing for himself andour future. I didn't want to hear his words and promises cause I still had some "fun: to get on with before deciding what I truly want. I accept our differences and know the love we share is worth all the effort we will put into this marriage to make it work. We have such a good connection right now. I never truly believed we would be over for good, but now I know he is the man who I want to share my life with and experience all life has to offer. He makes me smile at any given time, can make my day brighter by a phone call and just is someone I see a lot of love from within.
After he went to work, I cleaned my house up & down and it made me feel good. I did accomplish more than I expected and I am soo happy about that. Even got to go thru most of my PR stuff for when I start up the business again. Summer is usually very uneventful for booking parties so I will apply for a waitressing job locally or reception job on the weekends or some nights. It will help alleviate the money stress and just give me a lil' extra cash as well.
Early afternoon I watched a couple "adult" DVD's so I would be "primed" for his arrival home to me later that afternoon. {Yes, I do indulge myself in some erotic videos to get ideas and to set the mood for what is in store that day or evening} When he came home, we hung out & decided to grill out some Bubba Burgers and then go out for a drink or two afterwards. We timed everything perfectly, ate dinner before 7 and enjoyed some" intimate" time before heading out for a drink at Applebees. Let me just say, TALK about INTENSE, and definitely something to say WOW about!!! It was very unexpected for him and it was a great start to the evening. All I can say WE had the feeling of ectasy & pure satisfaction the rest of evening. We left for drinks, hung out about an hr and came home to watch American Idol and Lost. I am addicted to LOST and it just has so many twists and turns, it definitely keeps you guessing. We snuggled up in my bed, watching our shows and I felt an even deeper connection with Ben, we soon fell asleep with me laying in his arms. It was one of the best nights we had together in a LONG time and boy was it worth it!
I had an idea for one of my blog entries and I thought it would be pretty interesting. I am going to dedicate my next entry to Things About ME. I encourage any of you who read my blog to comment about things I jot down or things about yourself and keep it going ...I think it will be fun and once again, you get a deeper view of Who I Am...
So I will close with that and will start upon my blog entry all about me...
Take care and have a GREAT Thursday!
posted by MyLifeAsIChoose2LiveIt @ 9:40 AM
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