MyWorldAsIChoose2LiveIt

Twisty Tuesday and more..

Today is a MUCH better day! I am feeling a lot better physically & mentally. I am excited about meeting "Lisa", my possible landlord, tonight about her townhouse for rent. I am trying not to get all hyped up about it but I am wishing for this to be the opportunity I've been waiting for. I have moved so much in the last 8 months & want to be living somewhere more than 4 months! I am sick of all the juggling around and bussling of my life all the time, I feel I have lived out of boxes for so long, I am done with it. I hate not being able to call a place home and wanting to be free of drama, problems and kids!

Just as an FYI, I've been staying in a hotel since Saturday night because I cannot have Tigger at my current residence because of serious allergies. I can't see keeping Tigger locked up in a cage all day with no food or litter box. She is a great cat and I know she would go nuts and be all freaked out everyday I return home. So I took it upon myself to do what I needed for me & Tigger and provide a place for me to stay w/her. I know it is a lot of money to do so but it will be better in the long run. I am really wanting this roommate opportunity to be the one I been waiting for so that I can move into it at end of month. I need some place where I can be free, stress-free and alone. I have been surrounded by all kinds of people for so long, I need "ME" time. I am not being selfish or depressed, it is just normal to want to be on your own and doing for yourself, right? I am sick of living in Indian Trail and taking on everyone else's problems and not worrying what's good for me. SO tonight will be the night for me to check out her place and hope for the best. If it is a good deal and I feel it can work, I will plan on being in it by the 1st weekend of March!! She offered to work with me with rent amount & not worrying about my credit as long as I can pay each month.

I am glad I'm making steps to do better for myself and take control of issues surrounding me. I have no one to depend on and if i take this place, having a place pretty much to myself will be sweet! I can make changes I need to make and allow myself "down" time to take care of me. I will plan out my budget better and make sure to put $$ aside for savings. My roommate, who lives primarily in the Outerbanks as a Realtor, is 31 y/o and doing very well for herself. We seem to get along great on the phone, so keeping my fingers crossed this will be IT for me. She will not be residing with me so i may see her one weekend a month, if that. Which gives me time for me and chill out. I can do as I please and have the comfort of knowing I have this place to myself.

Well work is great and I am so glad I have American Wholesale in my life. They have been very understanding of being out sick last week but I'm anxious to feel 100% and get back to the "Usual Jenny" feeling. I hate being so sick and unable to do a lot...I will keep doing what I need to take care of me & worry about the rest later. I am most important right now and that is what I need to keep thinking... I have taken on so much other problems and drama of others, I need to focus on what I need and want in life.
Tony is out of the picture...he has been lying to me as well. I am just a fool to even allow myself to feel for him and trust in him all along...Being alone and on my own for once will be very good for me heart & soul. I feel this will be the best thing I could do for myself and make me #1!!

Work still to catch up on and off right after work to meet lisa.....Good bye...wish me luck!

posted by MyLifeAsIChoose2LiveIt @ 4:07 PM