MyWorldAsIChoose2LiveIt

Moving Along MONDAY

Lets be honest and I am really wanting feedback on this. After reading my BLOG entries about my life in the past few months, Do YOU ALL think I am still in love with Matt? Come on, let me know. We went our separate ways about 5 months ago, I paid his cell bill as agreed until December (even when we were no longer together & weren't talking for months) and we havent even spoken a word to one another for about that long too.
YES I do read his blog weekly but does that mean I still love or want him? I don't think so, curious at best!! Well, I commented on his entry from last week & his now girlfriend, Alecia, commented back at me. Well I put her is such a tissy, she went off with name calling and etc...Anything I had commented on his blog, has been all true. If he denies it, then he is fucking dillusional. Granted, IF she reads the damn blog of his, she is gonna read some shit about anyting & everything in his life, including how great she gives BJ's..whooo for her---be proud of that! How DOES it make you feel when he plasters your name all over it with details of how awesome you are sexually??? Does that give you prides do you realize he has DONE that with all the women he slept with, so far??? If you were so different to Matt why would he continue the same ol' shit with you??? She has seen all my pics Matt had taken when we were living together, OK..can we say weird? I mean why do you want to see all MY pics (feeling a little competitive) & 2nd why does he still have all my pics and explicit ones at that, still on his computer??? She commented on how I am not pretty or skinny, DID I EVER SAY I was skinny..NO but I am NOT fat either...I am pretty & I do have a petite figure, no questions on that. I have no complaints from anyone who has met me nor have been told I 'm ugly/ nasty or gross!!!
Anyways she went on a tirade on how I am bitch and need to straighten out my life, blah blah blah, I got quite a laugh and it made my morning! I think the only reason he is with her is because MATT was lonely/depressed, not getting any action and his hand wasn't cutting it. His reason for breaking up was because he didnt want to put me at risk of getting "H", so why would he even consider dating another woman who doesn't have it ?? Answer me that. It didn't bother me one bit that Matt im'd me this morning telling me to keep commenting to his blogg & adding entries to mine cause he & Alecia get a laugh off it. I actually get satifaction knowing Matt & Alecia read over my comments together and possibly my blogg.; they will certainly get an eyeful...OR mouthful. Remember, I am not the one who has to be CAREFUL as to when I have sex...it is a great thing too.

Anyways, getting back to my weekend. It was surprisingly eventful. I hung out most of Saturday around the house, getting more excited about my date as each hour passed. Later that night, Nick picked me up at the house, in his arms a red long stem rose and a teddy bear! I was smiling ear to ear. So we drove up to Dixies' and began our night out on the town. He paid for everythig the whole night, it felt so good to be treated like a queen, and he acted like a REAL gentleman the whole time. We had some drinks, watched the end of Pats vs Broncos game and then the dancing started. We made our way outside under the tent and spent most of night dancing & drinking out there. His friend, Justin, arrived after us and he was quite impressed with me as well. We all danced and talked til closing of bar. I was getting pretty "perky" we will call it & don't think I had danced so much in one night. We enjoyed the variety of music they played and sang along to most. Also saw a few people I see at Stool's up there and we took pics and danced the morning away. Nick proceeded to buy me another rose but when we were not looking, someone snagged it. Nick seemed to have a great time, even when men were bold enough to walk up to me and try to dance with me!!!
Nick is very sweet, affectionate, and protective of me. It makes me feel good though over the weekend he called & texted way too much...funny thing, Matt used to say I did the same thing, so now I am getting mine..hehe! I feel if he just felt confident I was happy & not uncomfortable around him, things would be better for me.Ok, can we say clingy?? So we left Dixies after 2am and made our way back to my house and he walked me to the door. He kissed me sweetly twice then right before I walked in door, he grabbed me & landed a good one on me...kinda blew me away but it was goooood!

I went into bed and slept soo soundly until 10:30 Sunday morning. We all got up and ate some breakfast and got ready to go grocery shopping..Fun times!! We bought all kinds of stuff for the next week or two and then came back home. I made my way to Stools' for the Panther game right at 4:30pm and spent a good part of the night there partying it up w/ the usual gang of people. Men were flocking all around me all night, they bought me all my drinks and I am not going to complain...I was having a good time and my g/f showed up right when Panthers won the game vs Bears. I had a really good buzz going and she joined in the fun we were having. I heard from everyone after the game, Nick, Jason (uptown guy), Bill, David, Mark, and Robin..it was celebrations everywhere for our win ...Now onto Championship Game next week.

Today has been very quiet but I have remained busy with benefit enrollment spreadsheet. I am officially their empployee as ot today and no longer temp. They offered it to me Friday and so here I am finally a great permanent full time position, making a great salary!

FYI...Matt can kiss my ass, he can take his lame ass call center job and stick it somewhere. FYI: People who have goals and motivation in life look for something more in life than being a "CSR", making shitty ass money.....DUH..Where are you going to be 5 yrs from now buddy??? I mean, Doesn't it get to you that the past two women you "loved" have made much more money than you and have been more successful??? WOW ...Life is Grand, FOR ME!!

posted by MyLifeAsIChoose2LiveIt @ 12:49 PM