Monday....
Man, I am tired and still not caught up on my sleep as of yet!! I keep trying but it hasn't happned yet. My weekend was better than planned but I am paying for it now. I feel like I am going to catch the flu or something...Friday was a good day, I worked until 5:30, went home changed & went to Dustin's (from Yahoo/Hi5) for a few hours. We started w/ Tequila shots when I arrived, then he started cooking dinner. He cooked the most delicious meal--cashew crusted salmon, asparaghus w/sweet orange/lime/creamy sauce; It was fabulous!! We drank lots of tequila and ate very well. He made a fresh salad with feta cheese & balsamic vinegarette dressing. We listened to music all night and had some deep conversations throughout the night about a lot of things. I got a little uncomfortable with his protests on me staying over cause 'I shouldn't drive' but know he really wanted me to stay and spend the night in his bed with him. Totally, NOT going to happen. He is a good guy but I made a committment to stay away from those type of situations and I am sticking by my word. I am not going to sleep with anyone, just to get some satisfaction or just to please their hormones. We definitely have some things in common, connect on many levels but not all on the ones I want to be. I left his place by 12:15 am and went home straight to bed. We will probably see one another again, maybe under different circumstances.
Saturday was fairly laid back. I woke up around 11am and chilled around the house most of day. I got most of laundry done and did some straightening of house/bedroom I had planned on doing this weekend. Nick & I (Yes Nick) planned to go out to Dixies, so I laid some rules down and see what happens. I was looking forward to my dinner date with Carl (someone else from yahoo). We met at Mexican Restaurant at 7 pm; had good conversation, ate good food and hung out for a while. We drank something after dinner to keep the mood light and fun. He is older as well and has 3 kids from previous marriage. Although a bit more "baggage" I was planing on, but I think we get along well. I was comfortable and at ease with him, nothing awkward or strange about him either. I hope we can hang out again, he seems very sweet, polite and sincere. I left Carl & went over to Sara's for some $$ she owed me and went home to fix myself up to go out wth Nick & friends. We got to Dixies around 10:45 and it was getting pretty packed. We had a couple drinks, and danced inside for a while. It gets soo hot and sweaty in there; small space for hundred of people. I would rather just hang outside, I can dance & drink and not have to worry ablout getting pushed and crowded in. It was a good night for people being out and about, dancing was in full swing and I was happy to be doing what I wanted. Nick acted very sweet/better behavior all night, he was more enjoyable to be around. I had a good time and when his friends arrived, we all danced outside and I was getting everyone in our "group" into dancing with me. Called it a night right at closing and Nick drove me home. Went home, checked emails for a while and went to bed, ALONE!!!
Sunday morning was ok...I got up at 10:30 and knew it was going to be a long day. I woke up with a severe migraine, body aches, upset tummy. I stayed in bed most of day and relaxed mostly. Had some light food & tea...watched little TV and kept sleeping most of day. Didn't call or talk to anyone and kept to myself. I had the house to myself for the day, so once again peace & quiet. Didnt do anything and hung out in my pj's all day...lazy rainy Sunday.
I found out over weekend Sara got pulled over & got a DWI coming back from Stool Pigeons. She was .25 when pulled over by cops and was arrested & in jail for 24 hours. She is going to have a lot more problems now that she got this DWI. She called me Sunday to see if I would pick her up & take her to work Monday & Tuesday. Since she is on the way to & from work I agreed and It is ONLY two days. I don't have to leave too much earlier than usual and I get to drive into work with someone!
So here it is Monday, I'm feeling better but the day is flying by soo quickly. I have spoken with Tony twice on the phone today and a couple times on IM. He is so good for me, he is sincere, loving, concerned about me & my happiness, spiritual and just a good wholesome man. He is Catholic & goes to Church. I am looking forward to doing things with him, things he enjoys, loves and wants to share with me. I will need to brush up on my cooking skills, they been lacking last couple months but I am getting a better feel for it, with cookbooks to assist me. I am more excited about him coming back to US within 2 weeks and flying directly to Charlotte. He will stay a few days then I will go to his place for the weekend or whatever.
I am just happy we will be together and spending quality time with one another. It is tough to start a "relationship" with someone who is at a distance (out of state) and who's traveled during the time we have been talking. He is definitely in this for a committment and long-term future, which IF I found the RIGHT man, I would be ideally looking for. I havent felt so connected to someone like this, EVER since I started getting online. I never intended on being single for long or not able to be Wife & Mother. As you have read prior to these recent entries, I have NEVER thrown the "L" WORD around easily or freely. I have never been in love or felt deep committment love with anyone in years. I choose my words very carefully and do that as a way to protect myself this time. I have put myself out there too many times, just to get hurt and let down. I haven't felt true feelings (not Lustful) and I feel my heart does belong with Tony. He is a good person inside & out, he has a way to make me feel special/loved w/a single word or look. I see so much of a future with him, he is stable and has known for a long time what he has wanted in a woman who he wants to share his life. He talks all the time about us starting our life together, when he returns. He knows I won't leave Charlotte now, even though it would be closer for me to visit my family more often, if I decided to live at his place in Maryland. I am so elated that I met someone who is genuine, compassionate, affectionate and honest!!!
LOVE IS IN THE AIR...I sure feel IT within me..... Hope tonight is relaxing and I go to bed early. I know Tony will call me tonight...CAN'T WAIT to hear that voice on the other end of phone.
~~Butterflies fluttering,
~~Calming feeling within
~~Excitement for his arrival...
~~Love is a GREAT THING~~~
posted by MyLifeAsIChoose2LiveIt @ 2:52 PM
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