IM in LOVE..In LOVE with....TONY!
OK..it sure has been an "interesting" beginning to 2006 and you all have heard tons about men coming in & out of my life over the past few months. BUT putting all that aside, I Know I am IN LOVE with Tony. He is someone special I been keeping a "secret" until now. I wanted to make sure I wasn't jumping the gun or wanting it so bad, I couldn't see straight. But I know for sure, HE is IT!!I mean, I feel butterflies fluttering in my stomach when I talk about him & see him, get all dis-orientated when he calls everyday and have been smiling ever since we met. I honestly feel I truly found someone I could see myself spending the rest of my life with, forever, and he is my equal in every sense of that word! I know, I have been saying this about other men I had been meeting, BUT Tony is different. Being older and more mature, he is more focused, determined 2 be successful and has a good head on his shoulders. I am not trying to be superifical but he is VERY handsome, intelligent, worldly(traveling/living in London & Switzerland), established in his career/life, never been married & has no kids. Once he gets settled from traveling, we will start planning his move from Maryland, as long as things go well with us in the next few months and start our life here "together". We are making plans for a future together & feelings are building stronger everyday and I am not scraed or frightened by how I feel about Tony. He has completely blown me away by his honesty/thoughtfulness, ways he makes me feel when we are together, and I've given him a renewed feeling that "Love at First Sight" does exist. I feel 100% comfortable with any decision we make together. He is the miracle I have been wishing for, for a long time.
He talks about having kids (3) and starting a family, though he knows things take time but if the connection is there, I am all for it. It is something I have wanted for a LONG time, loving partner and children to fulfill my life dreams. I am sick of being played and used and walked all over...it is not my style to accept those things. Granted, there are some things that need to be worked out BEFORE the move & arrangements are made, most importantly, my divorce to be finalized (May is not too far away) and get that all worked out. I figure if I can be happy and truly have a commitment w/ someone, I will go for it and not look back. I haven't felt such feelings for a man in a VERY long time..I mean we are talking about 4 1/2 yrs.
I know this is love, I've been there before, so I know what is about. It is goes way beyond lust or "raging hormones". We havent taken this to that level and HE is willing to wait until I am ready. I see his picture when we are online & my knees get weak, I hear his voice and my heart flutters wildly; his arms around me at night just makes my body melt into his. He is a bit older (35 y/o) & we met through Date.com a few months ago. I think the older mature man is what I need, no games or players here. We have talked for hours about anything & everything. He is currently in the UK getting some business settled (inheritance $$) and will be back within 2 weeks. I will either spend a few days @ his place in Maryland or he will come & stay in Charlotte, depending on how much time I have off from work when he returns home. I am just looking forward to spending time with him and being with someone who knows how to love and feel for someone else beside themselves.
I know, I have been "in love" before but NOTHING quite like this..EVER!!! Someone I cannot stop thinking about 24/7, wake up & go to bed at night with him in my thoughts/dreams. I mean, I would drop anything & everything to be with him. We would do anything for each other. On top of everything, he is romantic, thoughtful, and just someone that when he smiles, I smile more, I feel like I am on cloud 9. I found the man I was supposed to be with me forever!! ):0~~ I think we can definitely be something special and long lasting. I mean, people meet anywhere these days and we hit it off like peanut butter & jelly. Tony & I mesh so well and have such a deep connection, beyond words. He is gentle and is the calm I needed so badly in my life filled with chaos & confusion. He has so much love to give and share with me. I look into his eyes and I see a future so bright, it makes me feel like everything I ever wanted in my life is standing right in front of me. I feel deep in my heart, this man is the ONE for me, he knows me inside & out and wants to provide me with a life I couldn't have with Ben. He is stable, hardworking, motivated and very much a down to earth guy; he is not materialistic, superficial or judgmental. He has a great personality, sense of humor and values/morals in life. He is professional and runs his own business in Maryland; but he is willing to do whatever it takes to be together...as long as it takes.
I know he feels the same, he tells me everyday. He is happy for my success in finding a good job and knows this job was exactly what I needed in my life to make it better for myself.
Well I guess I am done "gloating"...I just am so happy and feeling like I am truly getting what I want in life..love, career, stability and dreams coming true...
posted by MyLifeAsIChoose2LiveIt @ 11:42 AM
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