MyWorldAsIChoose2LiveIt

Thriving Thursday

Boy, this has been a week from hell..but that all came to an end last night. I met someone, Aaron, and he literally swept me off my feet. He is 27 and 6'3. He is athletic and basically a "starving artist", as he calls it. I would of never met him if it wasn't for Nathan, a friend I met thru Sarah, another g/f I see on weekends. Anyway we decided to meet at Stools at 9pm to have some drinks and hang out. Aaron ended up meeting us there and it was immediate physical chemistry. I really think we had a good connection and we exchanged phone #'s as well. We played a couple games of pool and listened to the drunken idiots sing Karaoke. It was a first time thing at Stool's and it was hilarious to say the least. During the night there was alot of flirting going on and he cop'd a feel of my ass a few times for good luck, which was a lucky thing for him..
We talked alot and drank a few while getting to know one another. I decided to leave at 12:30, since I get up at 7 and work today. I slept ok, I had some very strange dreams and kept waking up every 2 hrs and go right back into the dream sequence. I don't know what was going on but when I woke up I felt very rested and ready to face another day at Technocom..confusion.
As I walked into the office, I saw the new lady had started and was going to be training with Lisa, a co-worker of mine on contract billing. It was a relief to see that they are preparing for my departure as of Dec 12th. I just hope something good comes along soon so I can get prepared for a new job as well.
This Christmas will be one of the hardest ones I think I will have to deal with. The thought of not having someone "special" in my life and just not having money to buy things for the ones I love, really sucks. Rent & bills come first if I am going to make this arrangement work for me. I do not plan on going back home for Christmas, it is really not a smart thing for me to do. I cannot afford to buy anyone presents, especially if I want to get my wedding set back from loan this month too. That will be hard to part with if I cannot get the money thru work.
But anyway, my life is slowly coming back around and things are starting to seem clear. Ben & I have had it out once & for all and now that I have EVERYTHING out of the house I need or want, I am free of him!!! He called me a piece of shit last night because I said to remove the wedding band on your finger, I am not coming back. You might as well just forget about that ever happening. It made me feel bad I had to be so blunt but it is the only way to be with him now. He is still hoping something he says or does will change my mind; well he should know ONCE I make up my mind to do something, I do it and stick to it. He isn't the right man for me and I could not see myself going back to someone I don't love & respect.
Well, tomorrow is Friday and I don't really have any plans as of yet. Tim from Greensboro expects me to come visit but I think I am not going to plan on going up at all. I am losing interest quickly in him, not that he did anything, but I think he wants things to happen too soon that I am not ready for. I am just not feeling it anymore, something about the weekend I was there before Thanksgiving, changed my mind on somethings. I really want to stay in town and decorate the house for Christmas with Tiffany, maybe catch up w/ David from work to watch some college football on Saturday. Things happen when they are supposed to..I know.
Well good night, gonna go continue my job search online and finish laundry...

posted by MyLifeAsIChoose2LiveIt @ 7:22 PM