MyWorldAsIChoose2LiveIt

Super Sunday...

Well, this weekend was full of ups & downs, so far. Friday night, when I first arrived at Stools, I accidentally dropped my cell in the toilet, boy was I upset! The only thing now is the damn phone won't allow me to place phone calls but I can receive! Well, I spent Friday night drinking up a storm with all my co-workers and ended up at "pirate man's" apt for the night. NO, we didn't fuck, believe me I was too damn drunk and sick to even do anything! I spent most of my time in his bathroom, throwing up, passing out and being sick. I felt soo bad, he was pretty drunk himself but he was trying so hard to make me comfortable and start feeling good. I finally made it to his bed around 1:30am and passed out while he was rubbing my back and trying to stop me from shaking. I had never been so messed up in my life but "pirate man" sure made me feel like it was ok and not to be embarrassed.
Well, when I finally made it home at 6am, I was met by Tiffany (roomie) and was informed we will need to talk when she comes back from the mountains. OK, well alright then! So I went to bed and slept for a couple more hours before heading to Techno-confusion for a few hrs to work on a report that needs some MAJOR work. Tiff told me I had an email, so when I had chance, I checked it out. Well, as of Dec 15th,I will no longer be staying at our house, cause of the issue with rent & my job. You see, I can barely pay my bills as it is and I am not extremely happy at her house. We mutually agreed it is wise for me to move out and move onto something new. Luckily for me, my g/f will be needing a ROOMIE, so I will move into her place within 2 weeks. Granted, I will not have ALL the freedom I had living with Tiff but at least rent will be a lot cheaper and less of a stressful lifestyle. I am pretty bummed w/ the whole situation but I think things happen for a reason and its all good! So, I stayed at work until 2pm and then headed to Cingular to see what could be done to make it my cell work again. Afterward, I headed to Ben's house to pick up the last of my luggage and Nascar stuff for my driver. Afterward, I went to Angel's to hang out, talk about my move there and then we went to Target. I shopped with her for ornaments, and went home.
I waited for David (from work) to call and we made plans to hang-out & for me to stay the night. I arrived at his place around 9pm and was happy to be him. He is soo warm, fun, affectionate and gives the sense he really is into me and not only for the BOOTY. We watched some football and then made our way to the bedroom for the evening. When his arms arms are wrapped around me, I am comfortable. I am completely taken away by how someone who has seen me naked, still can call me sexy. I don't think I am, cute maybe but not sexy. I used to think I was but Matt kinda fucked that up for me. By telling me how I need to lose weight and tone up. Granted everyone could use toning and shit, but geez. But with David, I can feel comfortable and love my body for what it is. He is gentle & sensitive with me, not just screw my brains out. We went to sleep around 1am in each others arms and I had a feeling of being safe and cared for.
I feel so unsure of what is to come for me but knowing there is someone here who sincerely cares for me and wants things to go well is, David. Last night, he said If I am in a bind & things don't work out w/ my move in w/new situation, I am more than welcome to stay with him but again..it will be very "weird" living with another man again. I still need my freedom and space to figure everything out BUT being with David, makes the uncertainty/depression all go away.
So, today is Sunday, I am here at David's condo, waiting happily for him to return home from gym and anxious to watch the Panthers kick some Falcon butt!!! We will hang out this afternoon, watch football, drink some beers and relax. No pressure at anytime with David and he is just the one I am mostly able to feel I can be me..no more or less.
Tomorrow is a new day and the start to getting things begun for my move, have to obtain a new storage unit near where I will live in tha Trail. Things will be very hectic for me in the next couple of weeks, but thank god for friends who are always there when you need them.
Well I am going for now...Football to start soon and want to freshen up for the afternoon...bye

posted by MyLifeAsIChoose2LiveIt @ 12:46 PM