Mundane Monday
Don't know what happened but I wrote the blogg yesterday but it has Tuesday date..go figure!My day has been pretty boring, on top of everything I am going thru, I have come down w/ a head cold and not feeling too well. I did get thru the weekend and my "hopefully" LAST move I will make for a long time. I am tired and sore all over.
I'm kinda of feeling like I am coming across as having a lot of men jumping in and out of my bed, and IT isn't the case. I have met & dated quite a few guys lately and hope you all don't get the wrong idea. I am a good woman, I don't cheat nor do I have one-nighters with different men every night/weekend. I had my "wild" fun in the past and not looking for that in my life, now. Yes, I have had a couple partners lately, but they weren't complete strangers or men I won't ever see again! We have an understanding and things aren't assumed. They are pretty much "friends w/ benefits". But if things work out, as I hope with David, this wont' be an issue at all. I tend to have more guy-friends than girlfriends, but I am having fun and living the way I want to live. No more love at first sight shit for me, I am done with that! I have been burned once too many times (w/matt for example) and I am not going thru that again. Yes, I may get "head over heels" or very excited when I meet someone new, but isn't that normal? Doesn't everyone enjoy having attention and someone who is sincere and cares for you?? I tend to be an exciteable woman but I won't say I love you until I truly/deeply feel it...that will be my BIGGEST CHANGE!
I mean, I chose to be with one man for over 8 years and I was faithful! I never once thought for a minute we would get a divorce. Then again, I never thought he would hit me again or turn out to be such a piece of shit for a husband. I was up-front, honest and truly faithful all thru the marriage & expected the same in return. I regret giving up so much of my life to someone who was not the ONE for me, but we all learn from our mistakes.
I have had a chance to meet some wonderful people since I moved out of Matt's house and into a new independent world on my own. I don't rely on anyone and I am making choices that I have to live with daily.
Well good bye for now..off to a g/f's to eat dinner and spend time getting more things over there!
posted by MyLifeAsIChoose2LiveIt @ 4:56 PM
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