WIDE EYED WEDNESDAY
WOW, I thought I had drama in my life this past year! Even after all the violence and negative behaviors in my marriage, I cannot believe what others have to bear in life too.My g/f who is going thru a separation with her husband (but still had a sexual relationship until recently with him) has got more shit going on than I do. She has a daughter who is 7 and is really getting put thru the ringer with her husband. Her "husband" has now been seeing his ex-wife and his two kids, mind you he divorced her over 7 yrs ago and this has caused a lot of issues for my g/f. She is flipping cause the ex-wife is supposed to be staying at her husband's house for Thanksgiving & wanting to introduce their daughter to her hubby's kids & ex-wife. Yes, I know very confusing but I don't want to name names on her to keep them anonymous. My g/f is worried her daughter will get confused and not certain of what kind of response her daughter will give. I feel for my friend, ex's can be very mean and spiteful, as I have seen with mine. She came over last night right after work to talk to me about her situation and she has been crying all day. She is soo hurt by the fact her husband is wanting to be with his ex-wife again after all she had put him thru to begin with. She was led to believe there was a chance things could be worked out w/ her husband during the separation but obviously he had other plans instead. His ex-wife cheated on him and married this guy, had 2 more kids and now is divorcing him now, cause she isn't happy. This will cause problems for my g/f & her family, in the long run. My heart truly goes out to her!
I am fed up with all the bullshit with my husband also. He keep insisting I NEED to give him this last chance to make things better and I am not willing to do this. I am tired of making excuses for him, pretending to feel things I don't and just settle for someone I do not LOVE anymore. I refuse to let him pressure me into coming back. I am ready to move away and start over where he CANNOT find me and bother me. I don't care if we don't get the divorce for another year but he needs to realize I am not going to be his wife anymore. I don't want anything to do with him and just want him to leave well enough alone. He keeps calling & it is soo hard for me not to pick up the phone and start an argument. He is so angry and trying so hard to make me see HIS way in all of this. Reality is I saw everything "his" way for 8 years and NOW I am seeing it only MY way. I hope he knows I don't care what threats he makes or mean things he does, HE isn't going to make me come back. I want out once & for all.
I leave later this afternoon for NJ and I am so excited. I finished packing everything last night, it will be very cold up there, just like here. I am definitely looking forward to seeing my immediate family and extended family when I come up, like I said before, it has been about 4 years since I visited for the holidays and it will be so nice to be home again. I think the time away from Charlotte will be relaxing and non-stressful. I am anxious about seeing my beautiful niece, she is growing and changing everyday. I haven't seen her since July when Matt & I came thru for the night but it was only hours not days to spend with her. We will have all weekend to hang out and do things, shop and just spend time together. Last weekend, my dad was put into hospital for some fast heartbeats and blood not pumping into his heart correctly. I was worried but knew by Saturday he was fine and was coming home in a day. I spoke with his the last couple of days and he is feeling good and on a strict diet so he can only eat certain foods and has to start working out. It def was another wake up call for him and our family. It sure has been a rough yr for all of us and I am certainly looking forward to 2006!!
Well off I go and will try to write over the weekend but if not...HAVE A HAPPY THANKSGIVING AND THANKS FOR READING MY BLOG...
posted by MyLifeAsIChoose2LiveIt @ 9:45 AM
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